oh my god! today i have a serious moodswing! actually at school i am quite happy. when after recess i went to chinese lesson for chinese.my chinese teacher told the whole class everyone marks. it upon 50 marks. when i heard that my mark was damn low. my expression change.oh my god. i cannot believe my result! wad happen to me! i got 15/50!!!!! i am so sad! my problem was my chinese was not good at first place and all chinese charater i cannot recognize all the words. this was the huge gaps. sigh! i have a longtime i dod't not fail subjectbut this chinese test make me mad!!! my friend seemiang got the highest in class. happy lor. i fail. sad! feel like crying. i must learnmore chinese. if not, when real exam is round the corner. i will not get to learn and study well for chinese.! i hate chinese a lot now!i don't like to challenge anything with my friends or familys. so, people wanted to challenge with better change your mind. if i out ofcontrol. i don't know what will happen to me. i just want to be myself. MYSELF. can everyone just free me! after n level when i get into ITE i better get rid of all my friends, but i will miss them a lot. not choose i want to start a new life. make new friends that i can always trusted. sigh! this world is full of competition going on. i don't when is the competiton going to stop. sigh! how? i am very confusedand complicated. can anyone teach me chinese. even i speak chinese at home and anywhere but i only how to speak but don't know how to readand write. ridiculous right! shoo! idoit and stupid chinese. CHINESE SUCK! freaking me man! after english lesson, the last period of classes. i and chong hua and xianhao went to mr tee. from 1st storey to 2 storey then still can't find mr tee. then from 2nd storey to 1st storey. then from 1st storey to bio lab2 then from bio lab2 to 4th storey then still can't find mr tee. then from 4th storey to 2nd storey then i called xianhao to go toilets to called(phone) mr tee. then mr tee was at 4th storey. then from 2nd storey to 4th storey. after having conversation with mr tee. from 4th storey. do you know how tired i am. plus my chinese mark i am already very upset and plus i went over the whole school.it damn sad and tired. i must try my best next test. if not my mother will killed me. she already very angry with my chinese result. sigh!why why why chinese is so difficult. 15plus chinese student in my class took the chinese test only 3 people passed. the rest all fail. hopenext generation don't have chinese i don't how happy i will be. agian tonight at school having a drama production. 1000plus altogether went towatch the drama. i did't go. cause no money and i am not interest in the drama. if it is a singing competition, i sure will go for it. upset,sad, dissappointed, angry, tired, stress, headache, sigh sigh sigh! life is difficult. why human must study and work. one day i may collaspe. i can't take it anymore. SIGH! SSSIIIIGGGGHHHH! help! help! help! i need help can anyone save me??? or will i drown. sigh! =(

crying.........sigh!